3 C's

Hello David & Pauline. So since they found out I drank a can of coke (or more) every day for the past 3 weeks, they have decided to cut me down on the 3 C's diet. Pauline & David have diets of their own. Pauline will give up lots of stuff that I will not list. And David will give up one thing that I will not write. This will be my daily cleansing journal. So starting from today (with the exception of the double fudge poptart I had), I am giving up

Coke,

chocolate,















 

& candy









for a month. Till January. :'( tear.

So now I have to list everything that I eat/drink everyday. Not the calories or anything, cause that's freaky & people will think we're crazy and anorexic, but just the foods we eat to regulate! And no lying fersure cause we pinky-promised. Heh.

November 30 (<-- UC deadline eep) :
-cheese bbang
-water
-double fudge poptart
-kim chi chi gae
-rice 
-half of a fish
-Bistro chicken caesar salad
-boricha

K, so I'll update later if I eat more. But I am really trying to cut down on snacks/sweets. I don't want to have diabetes before I'm 20. Cause that would suck.

Days without coke: 1

Uhrm

So I decided to do Blogger instead. Because I write for like 2 hours on Penzu every day without realizing it and that takes up too much time. Although I do enjoy going back and reading what I was feeling or what was going on in my head that day.

I am listening to emo music right now. 가슴이 욕해 by Kim Dong Wook. From the You're Beautiful OST. AHHHHHH. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL'S OVER! Sucky ending, but I liked how they finished it off nice & clean. BBF got so messy & stupid at the end cause they kept on introducing more characters to make more drama. SIGH.

I LOVE THIS OST. IT IS SOO GOOD. & it's not all emo music. There's lots of upbeat songs in here. Heh. And in this drama, I loved ALL the characters. Even Uee, the not-so-evil mom, Manager Ma, Stylist Wang, the director guy (JACKPOT!), JEREMY <3, Taekyung, & Shinwoo. And Park Shin Hye is cute AND pretty. Not many girls can pull that off.

Today, I was at Starbucks with Tina & we were just talking about random stuff. And we got to the topic of how sucky it would be to get "left behind." & then, this black guy in front of us started talking to us. Here is how the convo went:
Guy: "Hey, can I ask you a question?"
Me: "Uhm, haha, okay."
Guy: "What did you mean when you said left behind?"
Tina: "Oh like, you know, in the Bible, being left behind."
Guy: "Ohh, okay. Why do you fear getting left behind?"
Tina: "Because.. then we would have to endure the Anti-Christ and stuff. And we would go to Hell, which is scary."
Guy: "So here's a question for you. Does your fear of going to Hell overpower your love for God?"
Me: "Uhmm. That's a good question."
Then, he started talking to us about how that's why there's a big difference between Religion & Christianity. Which got me thinking. Am I a Christian because I love God.. or because I fear going to Hell if I don't? IDK, I'm still pondering that.

On a different note, I feel like I'm missing something in my life. It's kinda scary. I feel like.. there's someone that's supposed to be there, but that person didn't get born. Or they died before I got to meet them. Do you get that feeling? Like, how would you feel if the person you considered your best friend never existed? Or died before you got to meet them? Would you feel that empty hole in your life? Or would you have found someone else to fill that spot? I feel like I'm missing that spot.